hey babuns!i miss u ppl soo freakn much.its has been a while since we last hang out and just talk n gossip n waste time n laugh like we dont care.i miss those moments.altho i made many new n (a very few) cool frens but they're nuthin like u ppl laaa...we sooo have to meet up.hmm.ouh i wanted to say that yana and nab, you blogs r awesome.i envy u 4 being able to pull it off.cheh mcm ape jek..padahal blog oni..hehe..bt seriously.u ppl rock!when i hang out with my other frens kan, we talk abt different things, look at things differently n..different jokes lah bacisly..which sumtimes may feel not as fun as u guys!
n some ppl basicly creep d hell outa me with d fact that they kno every single printed ink writen on the book.like when am i actually start studiying....hehehe.but overall they're okay la.n in case u're wonderin nab, i do have some guy frens.just to joke arond with la.not study together...n act, i dun do study grp.wic is bad rite..bt i just duno how.n they r saying in medicine u cant study alone...urgh..
ouh pls pray that my jpa will masuk a.s.a.p!!
cannot tahan woooo....
Monday, August 25, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
start
hi there.
im in the computer lab.in the faculty of medicine!cheh.but here i am not searching for bio stuff.but figuring how to bukak myspace.and that sorta things.im in shah alam now.and the way of studying is different and a bit harder.that day i saw a real dead body.but it was like nearly destroyed so it was disturbing.and i was upset the fact that im disturbed.like im not supposed to.damn.to make it worse the room was filled with fomalin so it hurt my eyes nose and troat and my eyes were watery so i looked like i was crying..so it was d whole thing that made me uncomfortable.cant write much.i can yana often now.yeay!!!hope to see you soon nab!
ouh.i miss kaka!!!!!!!
im in the computer lab.in the faculty of medicine!cheh.but here i am not searching for bio stuff.but figuring how to bukak myspace.and that sorta things.im in shah alam now.and the way of studying is different and a bit harder.that day i saw a real dead body.but it was like nearly destroyed so it was disturbing.and i was upset the fact that im disturbed.like im not supposed to.damn.to make it worse the room was filled with fomalin so it hurt my eyes nose and troat and my eyes were watery so i looked like i was crying..so it was d whole thing that made me uncomfortable.cant write much.i can yana often now.yeay!!!hope to see you soon nab!
ouh.i miss kaka!!!!!!!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
something
Yeay!! This thought suddenly went in my head and I have something to say! Well to be precise a little thing I had when I was a kid. I still remember when I was about in standard 3, one day I saw a row of students walking in line to enter the examination hall to take UPSR. And sadly, at that time I thought that was the scariest thing I could ever encounter. Like taking major exams. Duhh. To me, if its my turn to take it, I would be lucky to be able to answer all the questions. So, that noght, or few nights after, before I go to sleep, I berangan like picturing myself (not when im taking the exams) but when taking the results. Like how would I react coolly when I found out I got straight A’s. from UPSR, PMR and SPM. I got ready of a few ways to react you know. Haha. Hilarious. But when I actually know my results the part where I berangan totally didn’t come up. And here I am. I finished school ans suddenly it poped into my head. I found out my UPSR result through my neighbour that works at the school. Soo uncool…and I was ponteng-ing school that day. PMR was quite classic bcos I totally didn’t expect it and my name appeared at the screen. And of course I remembered crying like a baby ON the stage during SPM result. Haha.
Ouh. Thanks for the wish you guys!! I really appreciate it! MISS U ALL SOO MUCH!
Ouh. Thanks for the wish you guys!! I really appreciate it! MISS U ALL SOO MUCH!
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
stupid worries
Okay. So I have read yana and nab’s blog. And they actually inspired me to write more. Although I’m so like nab. Im sure I’ll stop after a few post. Anyway what they inspire me is to actually just blab about anything. Its quite hard for me bcos some things I like only certain people to read. And sometimes not be read at all. For example my first post. Its out of pure patheticness and cliché. And I do care if people that don’t understand that read it. So a big SORRY to yana for lying about me not having a blog. Heee. Can I actually make this blog just for certain people to read?
Okay so moving on. Forget about my first post. (btw, I had a really bad choice of word huh.). I just found out that I got into UiTM. I was freaked out when I first found out. I didn’t expect to get it at all. Cause my aunt kinda checked it for me and she said there were very little chance. But then I saw the webpage and went into tears. Awwww. Before like clicking the “semak” button I was really praying hard. Not really that i get UiTM, but that I would be able to accept whatever it is that I get. To remember that it is the best for me. And thankfully it turned out fine. I was happy all the way until my aunt said that my uncle actually texted his friend my ic number and ask for his help. Not like an official ‘u gotta help me’ thingy but he did asked for his friends help. Without me or my parents knowing. So after knowing that I feel that I don’t belong to be there. Like the rest of the students got between 3.9-4.0 and here I am -3.78..but still I should be thankful bcos then again it’s the best for me. Its just that after this I really have to step up in everything. Luckily my classmate got the same course as me so we’re planning to be roommates.
I hate it when I feel like I have typed soo much and then I look up to d monitor and it has only been like ciput.. haha.. soo…what do I crap about now.. okay I want to talk about one tree hill. I haven’t watched the 2nd part of season 5 but I hate how it hangs. Whats up with haley. She screw her marriage and nak kacau lucas’s pulak. She has messed up with chris keller and want to make a big deal out of this pulak. Ouh. I think that Lindsey and carrie kinda look the same and they both have that Angelina jolie look. Haha. Im soooo glad that chase is back. Hes super cute.. but u know who should come back. Jake. The ever hot jake. Hes like the hot daddy. What else..ouh u guys should know that I cried like a baby when peyton told lucas shes gona let go. Like it breaks my heart….. have u ever have d feeling where u just feel like crying. Doesn’t matter over what. Just cry it out. U don’t even have to be sad or anything. I always have that. So what I did was I will watch the sadest movie I can find and forward it to the part and try to cry. For example ‘I am sam’ (nab I found it. I got it from Aina.)
Heres a little poem I found and its quite something.
Its funny how hello is accompanied with goodbye
Its funny how good memory can start to make you cry
Its funny how forever never seems to really last
Its funny how much you’d lose it you forget about your past
Its funny how ‘friends ’ can just leave you when you’re down
Its funny how when you need someone they’re never around
Its funny how people change and think they’re so much better
Its funny how many lies can be packed in one ‘love leter’
Its funny how people forgive even though they cant forget
Its funny how ironis life turns out to be
But the funniest part of all,
Is none of that’s funny to me.
Okay so moving on. Forget about my first post. (btw, I had a really bad choice of word huh.). I just found out that I got into UiTM. I was freaked out when I first found out. I didn’t expect to get it at all. Cause my aunt kinda checked it for me and she said there were very little chance. But then I saw the webpage and went into tears. Awwww. Before like clicking the “semak” button I was really praying hard. Not really that i get UiTM, but that I would be able to accept whatever it is that I get. To remember that it is the best for me. And thankfully it turned out fine. I was happy all the way until my aunt said that my uncle actually texted his friend my ic number and ask for his help. Not like an official ‘u gotta help me’ thingy but he did asked for his friends help. Without me or my parents knowing. So after knowing that I feel that I don’t belong to be there. Like the rest of the students got between 3.9-4.0 and here I am -3.78..but still I should be thankful bcos then again it’s the best for me. Its just that after this I really have to step up in everything. Luckily my classmate got the same course as me so we’re planning to be roommates.
I hate it when I feel like I have typed soo much and then I look up to d monitor and it has only been like ciput.. haha.. soo…what do I crap about now.. okay I want to talk about one tree hill. I haven’t watched the 2nd part of season 5 but I hate how it hangs. Whats up with haley. She screw her marriage and nak kacau lucas’s pulak. She has messed up with chris keller and want to make a big deal out of this pulak. Ouh. I think that Lindsey and carrie kinda look the same and they both have that Angelina jolie look. Haha. Im soooo glad that chase is back. Hes super cute.. but u know who should come back. Jake. The ever hot jake. Hes like the hot daddy. What else..ouh u guys should know that I cried like a baby when peyton told lucas shes gona let go. Like it breaks my heart….. have u ever have d feeling where u just feel like crying. Doesn’t matter over what. Just cry it out. U don’t even have to be sad or anything. I always have that. So what I did was I will watch the sadest movie I can find and forward it to the part and try to cry. For example ‘I am sam’ (nab I found it. I got it from Aina.)
Heres a little poem I found and its quite something.
Its funny how hello is accompanied with goodbye
Its funny how good memory can start to make you cry
Its funny how forever never seems to really last
Its funny how much you’d lose it you forget about your past
Its funny how ‘friends ’ can just leave you when you’re down
Its funny how when you need someone they’re never around
Its funny how people change and think they’re so much better
Its funny how many lies can be packed in one ‘love leter’
Its funny how people forgive even though they cant forget
Its funny how ironis life turns out to be
But the funniest part of all,
Is none of that’s funny to me.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
uno
So, this isn’t the first time I’m writing a blog. But writing a blog for myself yea..
I still don’t get the purpose of some people writing a blog..like they wana get a msg across but dun really want people to know abt it..
But as I said earlier, just for some people. I wonder how it feels like to be Perez Hilton. Knowing whatever u write is goina be read by millions of people.
No matter if its true or not..
In my case, whatever I wrote is truly about me and I (I hope) don’t give a damn what people think. I may not have something new to write about everyday, so I’ll only post when ‘m in the mood.
Which will usually be like once a week or even worse.
Today, or rather these past few days I’ve been far more pathetic than usual.
I think about him like 24/7. before I go to bed I will be staring at my phone hoping he wud call me. And whenever I wake up I will be checking my phone if theres any msg or miscalls…
Some people take a year or 2 to get over someone. But I still don’t know about me. My first love. Will it ever die. Will I ever be able to go through a day without thinking about him at all. Honestly after 6 fucking months that we’ve broken up he is in my mind every single day. I miss him every single minute. I don’t know if there is 1 girl in this world that would love him more than I do. I would basicly do just about anything for him. Yep. I;m becoming that girl..who’s willing to sacrifice anything for a guy who doesn’t even love me.or at least doesn’t know that I love him. Or be to presice stiil in love with him. Maybe he has moved on. He has moved on.its not a maybe. He has a new girlfriend. But they’ve broken up. But still..he moved on. Maybe he was with that girl longer than he was with me. He never wants to call me anymore.. I don’t know what was on his mind when I called him that day. That night I missed him so much that I felt that I had to call him. And I did. After that I felt soo relieved..but than.. my expectation went high. I waited for him to call me back.. but he didn’t.
Okay I don’t want to make this blog to be all about him. But rite now that’s all I could think of.
I still don’t get the purpose of some people writing a blog..like they wana get a msg across but dun really want people to know abt it..
But as I said earlier, just for some people. I wonder how it feels like to be Perez Hilton. Knowing whatever u write is goina be read by millions of people.
No matter if its true or not..
In my case, whatever I wrote is truly about me and I (I hope) don’t give a damn what people think. I may not have something new to write about everyday, so I’ll only post when ‘m in the mood.
Which will usually be like once a week or even worse.
Today, or rather these past few days I’ve been far more pathetic than usual.
I think about him like 24/7. before I go to bed I will be staring at my phone hoping he wud call me. And whenever I wake up I will be checking my phone if theres any msg or miscalls…
Some people take a year or 2 to get over someone. But I still don’t know about me. My first love. Will it ever die. Will I ever be able to go through a day without thinking about him at all. Honestly after 6 fucking months that we’ve broken up he is in my mind every single day. I miss him every single minute. I don’t know if there is 1 girl in this world that would love him more than I do. I would basicly do just about anything for him. Yep. I;m becoming that girl..who’s willing to sacrifice anything for a guy who doesn’t even love me.or at least doesn’t know that I love him. Or be to presice stiil in love with him. Maybe he has moved on. He has moved on.its not a maybe. He has a new girlfriend. But they’ve broken up. But still..he moved on. Maybe he was with that girl longer than he was with me. He never wants to call me anymore.. I don’t know what was on his mind when I called him that day. That night I missed him so much that I felt that I had to call him. And I did. After that I felt soo relieved..but than.. my expectation went high. I waited for him to call me back.. but he didn’t.
Okay I don’t want to make this blog to be all about him. But rite now that’s all I could think of.
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